Sometimes I look back at my life and wonder about the crossroads I experienced. At each crossroad there was a choice - one path verses another. Each one of those choices has brought me to the place I am at right now. Each choice was powerful in it's own right since each one effects the series of choices that follow. Had I made just one different choice, my entire path would have been altered. To think of it in those terms, it is an almost overwhelming thought - incredible magnitude but yet simplistic in format.
When I look back, I feel as though I put more thought into those decisions now than I did when I made the actual choice. It is not to say I don't like where I am today. In fact, I am the happiest I have ever been. I am content and peaceful inside. I think my sense of wonder makes me ask the questions, "Did I need to experience each choice to arrive where I am at now?", or "Did I create a harder road for myself to arrive at the same destination?". Maybe my sense of wonder stems from the fact of being a mother and wanting to teach my child as much as possible so they reach the place of contentment and peacefulness easier or quicker.
I don't have answers to my questions yet - only theories that it lies somewhere in the middle. Maybe I needed to go thru the choice experiences because I wasn't provided the information when I was growing up. Or maybe it was needed because its information that can't be taught - only experienced.
-Stacey
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